Baby on Board!

I woke up on February 6th, got Lyles dressed, and hopped in the car.  I needed a few things at the store, so we headed out first thing in the morning.  I debated about grabbing a pregnancy test (or two) because I really didn't have any symptoms (except for that missing monthly visitor).  When I was pregnant with Lyla, I "just knew" right before the 4 week mark -partly because I was all ready nauseous- but I didn't have that feeling this time around.  No "intuition" and, thankfully, no morning sickness. I went back and forth, and decided to buy a box.  

We made it home, and I took the test.  As I watched that little blue line appear, I went from nervousness, to disbelief, to overwhelming love.  I was so excited the first time I took a positive pregnancy test almost 4 years ago, but this time, I really understood what it meant.  Because, this time around, I could draw from experience...

I knew about the long wait of seemingly never ending pregnancy.  I knew about the morning, noon and night sickness, that stuck around from week 4-40+.  I knew about the aches, exhaustion and discomfort. I knew about the terrible heart burn (and that, contrary to google, it can result in a bald baby). I knew by the end of pregnancy, I would feel like my name should have "osaurus" at the end of it.  And that's all fine.  Because I also knew the feeling of anticipation of a new life. I knew the love I felt hearing Lyla's heart beating for the first time. I knew the feeling of those first little flutters shared between my baby and me.  I knew the feeling of somersaults and kicks that I could share with my family and friends (and the occasional intrusive stranger)!  I knew the excitement of the anatomy scan when we found out I was having a perfect baby girl with 4 working heart chambers, 2 arms, and 2 legs, and the cutest little alien head you've ever seen.  And most importantly, I knew the love I felt the first time I held her in my arms, and the love that has grown exponentially and inexplicably without limit from that moment as I got to know that little person, and watched her grow into a funny, sweet, beautiful little girl.

Nourishing a little life is the most exciting, terrifying, and wonderful blessing.  I'm so excited to get to know this little one, and will spend this pregnancy enjoying this time as a family of 3 before everything changes for the "even better".